oh my, I had set out to do 30 truths in 30 (or so) days and the last truth I posted was at the end of March – and I had only gotten to #7 – and #7 was lame. So – here goes!
Truth #8: I am in a total blogging ‘funk’ that I can’t really explain. I guess I just feel so behind with all that I’d like to share it seems overwhelming so it’s easier for me to just not post at all. I worry about sharing too much sometimes. I worry about sharing too much about one child and not enough about the others. I worry about someone stealing my photographs. I worry about someone taking something I say the wrong way. I worry about being judged or misunderstood. I know some of these things are silly but it’s the truth.
Truth #9: A couple of the blogs I follow have recently shared they are expecting and it has made me realized that I am sad I will never be pregnant again. For those that don’t know, my hubby had a vasectomy at the end of March so I’m pretty sure my never again really is never again. Obviously I know that’s what is best for our family and I definitely don’t regret the decision but it’s a little sad to know I will never experience pregnancy and child birth again. I don’t miss the heartburn, the gaining weight, the weird skin, the pain and discomfort, the uncontrollable hormones, the frequent doctor appointments, the fear of something going wrong.. I do miss the baby kicks, the comfy, stretchy clothes, the nice hair and nails, the extra attention, the overall excitement, the amazing experience of child birth. I know many of you think I’m crazy but a little piece of me is sad.
Truth #10: A very dear friend of mine was killed in a car accident in September, 2000. He was a very intelligent, sweet, funny, passionate, stubborn 17 year old who is missed by many. Several classmates and I went to the scene a couple of days after the accident and I found a piece of the Ford Probe my friend was riding in. I picked up that piece of red plastic and put it in the door of my car. I’ve had 3 other cars since then and today it still rests in the door of my car. I’m certain it will rest in every car I have until I see him again in Heaven.
Truth #11: I am a reality TV junkie. Amazing Race, Survivor, Biggest Loser, Dancing With the Stars, 16 & Pregnant, the list goes on! It’s terrible – I wish I could just disconnect the cable and never watch tv again but I know that will never happen!
Truth #12: I have a serious love/hate relationship with food. I love eating but hate food and all the complications it can bring. I’ve always been a picky eater and it stinks. I have never really been a ‘healthy’ eater which also stinks. I’m a terrible cook and an even worse meal-planner. If we could all have cereal for dinner every day I’d be one happy gal. Please, if anyone has any food/meal planning websites, blogs, books, anything, I am all ears!
Okay, time to get my butt in gear and do something productive around this house! I will leave you with some cute photos :)
[Gabby hated the Easter bunny, so momma had to join the photo!]