Tuesday, February 8, 2011

so sorry!

Oh man, I have been totally slacking at this blog stuff.. I am SO sorry!  I really just haven’t had the time to devote, nor have I really felt very clever in the ‘writing’ area.  The kiddos are doing well – they are all growing very fast.  Gage will be 4 months old tomorrow, Gabby is walking alllll over the place and my big guy Gav is just such an amazing big brother! 

I’ve been having a lot of trouble lately dealing with my Grammie’s passing.  I know everyone grieves differently and at their own pace; I realize I need to give myself time since it has only been a month (tomorrow) that she’s been gone.  I just miss her terribly.  I just want to be able to go and visit with her, talk to her, play with her hands, play with her hair, blow her kisses, take photos with her, just see her face.  It’s been so hard for me to accept that I will never..never..be able to do any of these things ever again.  I think this picture is exactly how I feel.. just sad.408

I hope to post Gage’s 4 month post tomorrow.. and something else fun I’ve been working on =)


Lindsay said...

That picture breaks my heart. I'm so sorry.

I know that you've participated in the Walk to End Alzheimer's before, maybe start looking ahead to that and try to raise more money that you ever have before and with a larger team than ever before as a tribute to your Grammie.

Jil said...

hang in there Kiley. you are right that everyone grieves at their own pace. and there is absolutely no shame in allowing yourself to really "feel" what you are feeling. and, at least in my experience, being patient with yourself helps with moving through the stages of loss.
*sending you good thoughts*